creativity runs thin in my blood. As I long to write an interesting blog, I realize that even if I succeeded, I'm far from interesting. The combination of silly words I'd never really use and thoughts briskly written on white paper doesn't make me a writer nor does it change the realities in my life. I guess it would be fun to be that sulky woman dressed in black, pacing endlessly in thought, carrying a camera and pretending to be someone she isn't. starving for attention and the words that come so naturally to her. Or that man who is hunched over with a pencil in his hand and guitar in his lap. He gets so much recognition, so much credit, he is so talented. Creativity. Is it uniquely bound into each personality? Or is it an acquired skill? I've decided that its both.
I'm neither the sulky woman in black or the man with a guitar. I hold no hidden talents. I hold no hope that someone will notice me as a brilliant mind. I haven't made a decision to be someone that I wasn't created to be. In fact, I'm no more than an everyday homemaker. This is even the box that I check on applications when asking for my job description or annual income. Its a category of its own. When you tick the little box, it indicates that not only are you non existent according to the IRS, but also that you have additional appendages attached to your hips and arms. A mom, a wife, and a house maid. That's me, and finding anything interesting in that is far from easy.
So how exactly do you happen upon this random lump of "creativity" waiting to be found? It's not exactly as if its something you trip over on the sidewalk. Or bang your head on in your sleep. In fact, according to wikapedia, creativity is a phenomenon that can't be defined or measured. Its something we are all born with and also can be taught. In other wards, from this point on I'm going to have to make it a point in my life to try to be interesting. Not leaving my house for days on end just simply isn't going to do it. Though I've involved myself in a variety of weekly whereabouts, including helping to lead young marriages, and now instead of choir, singing lessons, it just isn't enough. I have a list of skills that I've desired to possess for quite some time. Years actually. They include acquiring a degree in web design, taking a photography course and also taking up some acting classes. I DO plan to achieve all of those things in time. But for right now, as UN-interesting and boring as it may be, there is nothing better than holding the title of "soccer mom"...or even better, according to my kids...the worlds greatest mom.
Creativity. Please. Its over rated anyhow. Maybe one day I'll be someone interesting. OR maybe, just maybe....I already am.
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you're interesting already! and if you want to achieve something else besides being solely a mom/housewife, you know i am all for that. you just have to start taking little steps that maybe don't even seem like they are getting you anywhere to achieve those goals whenever doors are open to you, and see where God takes you from there. i've learned that you should never pass up any opportunity that knocks to even just begin to develop the skills you were given. :)
of course, being a parent/wife is always exciting and rewarding in itself, too. but you should never give up your dreams.
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